Mindy-mind. :)

A part of my mind is telling me to focus on my studies, and forget everything. Such as online-ing, and.. well.. wasting my time, doing NOTHING.

I have this bad lil' habit. That is, wasting my time lying down on the bed, doing a lot of thinking, and that, is wasting time. I can spend the whole day lying down on my bed, without food and water, just to do some thinking. Is it or is it not a bad habit? I dont know. :s

Spending time in my room, is my hobby, and hey, i just realised this lil' hobby of mine few seconds ago! How.. amazing?
I love to read on my bed, eat on my bed, play instruments on my bed, think on my bed and I do practically everything on my bed! Guess you can say that my bed, is my bestest pal after all.

Well, the other part of my mind, is telling me to focus on bowling :D
I love you, mindy mind. But that, is not a good thing to do. Why not focus on both sides?
Studies and bowling. That's what the middle part of my mind is telling me.
I dont know lah. All I know is I'm stucked in the middle of nowhere or, somewhere?
Friends, family, love, studies, sports?
It's all pressuring me like h*ll.

I know that I shouldnt be concern bout love life, but what can I do to just make it go away?
I dont know. As long as I'm stucked in this miserable town, I'm stucked with it.
I'm tooo young to face it. I mean, studies comes first right?
It's for my future and my own good. But.. aiyaa.. sometimes i wish that i'm borned to be a boy instead of a girl. For some reason, being a boy, is.. less pressuring i guess?

But God created me this way, and there's reason for whatever He is doing to us.
I'm not an accident. He knew that He'll create me. And I thank Him a lot for creating me.
Well, what happened, happened.
And there's reason for everything that happened. =)