Depressed.

I hate my life. Yeaaa. I loved bowling so much I cried because of it. lol. Was supposed to go bowling this morning. I prepared. Mom asked "Goin to bowling ah? " And I said "yea. "
Showered, put ma clothes on, socks, prepared my bowling stuffs ate some bread. Waited for my mom and suddenly these words came out from her. "I need to urus my passport. It might take some time. " she paused for a while and said "where are you going? "
Watha? WHERE AM I GOING? You just asked me that moments ago mom!
I answered "Bowling? " and she was like "who's gonna fetch you home? I cant coz I duno what time I'm comin back. Until malam oh maybe."
That really hurts me. A LOT.

Yesterday, was new year, parents went out and left me at home, Alone. Ok, nevermind i say. Mom came back first with her friends,
and I asked "Mi, can I go bowling? I'm bored oh at home. " And she said "What? No need lah you go bowling bowling. Stay at home. I malas wanna hantar you. "
This time, I hear cermin pecah inside of me.

So, I waited for my dad instead. Ahh. Finally, he's home.
Me: "pa, ni yao chu ah? "
Dad : "ah. zuo mo? "
Me : "wo yao qu bowling oh. "
Dad : "ha? zhe yang chi liao. bu yong lah. wo lan duo zai ni. "

English version.
Me : "Pa, u'r goin out ah?"
Dad : "Yea. Why?"
Me : "I wanna go bowling oh."
Dad : "Ha? It's late ady lah now. No need lah. Kinda lazy wanna send u."

Parents. Both of them gave me the same reason. They're not lazy if they're doin their own thing. But when it comes to me.... I felt so left out. Lol. Jiwang bah. But seriously. They never support me. They said waaa go bowling good oh. Telling their friends that I'm active in bowling lah, ini lah, itu lah. Bagus lah konon.
Sekali tengok, when I wanna go bowling, mesti complain.

They support me for a while, and the next thing you know, their so called supports were all fake. Everytime I come back from bowling, I wanna tell them how was my practise. But they never really bother. I tried that a lot of times. When I told them my score was ok, they said "good lah. "
When I told them practise was bad, they go "what's the use of your coach if like that? "

When I got a medal for bowling, I dont really expect anything from them, coz I know, it's never a something for them. Medal is like a useless piece of metal. All i got from them is "waaa. good. win more ah." That's it.
When I didnt get anything from the tournament, all I can hear are complaints.
Sometimes I wonder, does my score stinks because of... Nahh.
All I need is a lil support. Is that so hard? Imma newbie in that thing, some moral support wont bite.
I am so lucky huh.